I feel like I need to start this with a little disclaimer. We all know life is not giggles and roses, although we’d love for it to be. Me especially. And there are many a blog out there where your going to get that. But this, is not one of them. I want people in my life who can get real with me, and not pretend that they’re perfect, or their families are perfect, because we all know it isn’t true. And we just traipse through the mud together, holding each other’s hands, no matter how dirty or tired we get. And because of that, I’m going to always be real here.
Ok, that said, I’ve gotten my feelings hurt. In 2 totally different relationships. And I’m honestly trying to figure out exactly how I should handle it. My initial response is to jump on my high horse, and make my totally right point known. On the other hand, I want to say nothing, back away, and leave the other person wondering what happened. Part of the problem is I feel like I’m a little misunderstood. Like unfair expectations have been placed on me. And while I’d love to be that person I’m expected to be, at this point in my life, there is no way I can be.
I’m afraid the theme of 2011 has become for me the simple word “grace”. I’m realizing I need a whole lot of it. And realizing I need to extend it in return.