Now before you get all – she’s being bragadocious, hear me out.
I take my kids behavior personally. Because after all, we are judged by our children’s behavior, right??? So if they are acting sub par, I get a little “passionate”. This weekend we had one of those days where maybe too little sleep and too much sugar was affecting us all. And the way my children were talking to their siblings was rubbing me the wrong way. So I “passionately” (read: yelled) told them that they needed to knock it off. And can you believe…gasp…they IGNORED me! So the passion was elevated, to the point that I might have been a little crazy.
After I told them they were doing chores all afternoon and giving them a list, I had to hit the pavement. Because there is nothing better than running when your mad. If you haven’t tried it, you should. Its a great time to have a good conversation with the Creator of the Universe too. So as I was telling Him I thought I was failing and I just couldn’t understand why they weren’t kind and loving to one another and I couldn’t understand why they were so loud and yelled at each other because I instruct them often to do the opposite, I was hoping I was getting my point across, when I asked, what more can I do??? And in true Creator of the Universe fashion, He told me two words. Model it. But I do model it, I argued. I tell them all. the. time. Then I have this flashback to my passionate rant. Ok. Point taken. He was right. I couldn’t argue. I hate it when that happens.
So I have a new job. And it’s going to be really hard for me. It’s going to stretch me. It’s going to make me think before I act. It’s going to take a lot of work. And it will probably change me more than it changes my kids, because that’s how these things work. So…I guess I’ll get started.